Worship Through It

“I love you, Lord, for your mercy never fails me. All my days, I’ve been held in your hands… All my life you have been faithful. All my life you have been so, so good.”

This has been a hard season for me. The pain and agony of watching my mom go through cancer. The grief and loss of secondary infertility. It’s all heavy, and it’s all hard.

Still, I sing these words, “I love you, Lord,” because God is no less good.

I told the Lord last fall when my mom was diagnosed with cancer, and we suffered our second infertility loss of 2024: “Whatever happens, I will not be angry with You, and I will not doubt Your goodness.” I needed Him to know, but maybe I needed my soul to hear it too.

Back then, Mom was Stage II with a 90% survival rate after treatment and surgery. Today, she’s Stage IV with a very negative prognosis.

Back then, we knew we’d do another round of fertility procedures in 2025. Today, we have faced even more loss, and we know our fourteen-year season with infertility has ended.

Still, my declaration is the same, because God is no less good.

I’ve been through hard trials before. I’ve faced loss and grief over infertility, and I’ve watched a dear friend die from cancer when I was convinced she would be healed. I’ve been mad at God, and I’ve doubted His goodness.

But today, I can declare whatever happens, God is still good. We’ve walked together longer. I know Him more intimately than I did five years ago, ten years ago, twenty years ago.

And so I say, like Peter says to Jesus in John 6: To whom would I turn? Where else would I go? He is the Christ, the Messiah, the only One who can save me.

“Who else is worthy?” This is what I hum on the hard days because the answer is: “There is no one. Only you Jesus. Who else is worthy?”

Believe me, I have plenty of days where I say, “Why does life have to be so hard right now?” I have plenty of days where I don’t feel like singing. But then I remember God’s faithfulness throughout my life. I remember His goodness. And I choose to worship my Creator, my Savior.

If you’re in the valley today, worship through it. I promise you’ll find life and peace when you choose to fix your eyes on Jesus. We were made to worship Him. In every season. Through every trial.

If you don’t know what to sing, find the Harvest worship 2025 playlist on Spotify. If you don’t know what to pray, read the Psalms. (Psalm 119 is a favorite of mine!)

“My soul melts away for sorrow; strengthen me according to your word.” – Psalm 119:28

“Let your steadfast love come to me, O Lord, your salvation according to your promise.” – Psalm 119:41

“This is my comfort in my affliction, that your promise gives me life.” – Psalm 119:50

“You are good and do good.” Psalm 119:68

“My soul longs for your salvation. I hope in your word.” – Psalm 119:81

We want to thank Laura Brandenburg for sharing this post.