“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you, nor forsake you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged.” Deut. 31:8
It is 2:30 in the morning, and once again I am awakened with pain and burning from the sores on my leg. This is one remaining issue from five-and-a-half months of healing. I sit here in my recliner, drinking herbal tea, crying out ‘How much longer, Lord,” as David did in the Psalms. I am reminded that most of the Psalms were written in the midst of a storm! Storms that brought with them pain, anguish, and deep sorrow. David knew he had been anointed by God to be king of Israel. But all he experienced and saw was one battle right after the other, rejection and hatred from loved ones, fighting and running for his life. He knew God‘s future for him, and that’s what he kept his heart and mind focused on (1 Samuel 16:12; 2 Samuel 5:1-3). Through each battle and each storm, God was sharpening and strengthening the tools David would need to lead Israel. David also grew in his relationship to the Lord. He was learning to praise and give honor to the Lord in the midst of the storm and his pain.
Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” I never fully understood this Scripture until I realized how much our Heavenly Father loves us. When we give our lives to Christ, everything that He allows to come into our lives is through His eyes of love. He will take our storms and pain and make something good come from them! Only when we allow him to do so; He will not interfere where He is not wanted. Most often I tried to do it myself, and that only made it worse! Looking back at the times in my life that were painful, and I was struggling, I see Jesus there with me, waiting for me to give it all to Him. Taking the fear, doubt, and pain from me, and giving me His peace and comfort, He also took care of the situation better than I ever could. Teaching me godly principles that I could not have learned any other way. Strengthening and sharpening my spiritual gifts. Growing my relationship with Him.
Psalm 23 tells us, “The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures; he leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul; he leads me in the ways of righteousness, for His name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil, my cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
As I have reached my golden years, I have learned to turn my troubles and sorrows over to my Good Shepherd sooner rather than waiting, knowing he will take care of me and give me everything needed! He walks beside me, giving me comfort and peace, giving me wisdom in what to do and say. He puts me in the right place at the right time. He has a plan for my life here on Earth, and in the life to come! He has given me His righteousness and taken all my sins, diseases, and unrighteousness, nailed them to the cross, buried them in the tomb, and He rose from the grave (proclaiming victory, redeeming all that was lost in the garden)! I live each day walking in His grace and mercy, knowing that when I leave this earth, I will be with Him forever!
Do I still have fears, doubts, and times when I feel like I can’t go on anymore? Yes! And yes! I still have times wondering and asking the Lord how much longer. Some prayers have been answered very quickly, some take a little longer, and there are some that take years before seeing the answer. Then there are those prayers that seem to not be answered at all. These are the hard ones to understand and to see God’s love. This is when our trust and faith in our Lord is really stretched and tested. Do we really believe God’s Word is truth, that He is a good Father who loves His children? (John 3:16).
Years ago, I was asked this question by a friend, “If you had a picture of God, what would it look like?” My answer when she asked, and still today, is very different from what it was when I was a young believer. I have seen God’s goodness and love, even at my lowest moments. When I have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, seen loved ones suffer from health issues, lost loved ones or other tragedies, I have learned, like David, to rejoice and sing praises to my Lord, in the midst of my storm! The Lord has the last word in all things! Amen!!! You may be wondering what my picture of God looks like? I see Him holding me in His arms, hugging and looking at me with pure love! This is how I find peace through the pain!
“You keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you” Isaiah 26:3.
We would like to thank Elaine Norell for writing this blog.


