Have you ever paused, reflected on your life and thought “How did I end up here? This is not where I thought I would be.” This is the very place I found myself last November, right before the holidays. It was a rough season to get through, but I also look back at that time with such joy and thankfulness. I was in the beginning stages of learning how to become more intimate with my Lord and Savior.
At the beginning of this journey, Satan often reminded me of my track record. I’d had glorious moments with God since I became a Christian at the age of 13, but I had never been consistent. But. God had begun a work in me, and I final started having the faith that He would and could complete it (Philippians 1:6). I begged God to show me how to have consistency and intimacy with Him. He didn’t give me answers overnight, but He has taken me on a beautiful adventure that has required time, trust, and willingness. I want to share with you a few things that I’ve learned so far on this road to being content in my singleness.
God’s love is unfailing, and unconditional. One night, my youngest son was sick, and I was getting some serious baby snuggles as a result. The weight of how much I love him swept over me. I touched his soft baby skin and held his tiny finger in adoration when my eyes were opened wide to the love the Father feels for the Son. I am one of His adopted daughters (Galatians 3:26) and He loves me with that love I feel for my children, multiplied by an amount unfathomable.
For the longest time, the way I thought about God’s love was twisted and conditional. Over time, by meditating on the truth, I have come to realize that I am valuable to Him (Psalm 139:14; Matthew 10:31) and that His love and grace really can transform me into who He created me to be (2 Corinthians 5:17; Galatians 5:16; 2 Corinthians 3:18). If you are reading this and doubt in the least bit the love God has for you, ask Him to show you. He will.
I gain more of God by letting go. Tragically, sin has been blocking intimacy with God since the very first sin recorded in Genesis. Praise God that 1 John 1:9 states:
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Letting go of my past and accepting His forgiveness was a process, but I’m finally starting to see myself the way He sees me, and it’s so freeing! I am free to be close to Him and have joy.
Spending time with God is the best way to want more of Him and purify our desires in other areas. Prayer journaling was a great start for me, because I had a hard time focusing on my prayers at first. I still love to write my prayers, but I also tend to connect faster when I’m looking at His beautiful creation. If you are having a hard time feeling His presence, please try something new….be willing.
Whatever season God personally has you in today my friend, my prayer for you is that He will bless you with more of Himself.
This post was written by Korey Coffman. To read more about her, click here.