The decision to adopt was one we had spent years praying on. God put it on both our hearts but we felt we would both know when the time was right. So about 5 years into marriage we really both felt the nudge that it was time to start the process.
Lucas had it on his heart that we would adopt from Asia.
With trial and error we found an agency that aligned with our values and really supported families on both sides-adoptive and birth parents.
At this point we were 2 years into the process.
The timeline we thought would happen is that we would go through all the required training and homestudy steps and THEN would be eligible to match with a child.
So we were enjoying life, on a snowboard trip when to our surprise, we got an email. The email was the agency letting us know they had a failed match with a child and family. But this child, she felt, would be well fitted in our family. She wanted to check with us first before the child was put back in the waiting child list.
I quickly opened the document. Saw her picture, read every line of her file. Learned about her medical history, her family, her background, read her social worker reports, learning about her big personality.
I was doing all I could to not let myself commit, right then, she was the one! Lucas reminded me we need to seek God. We need to pray on this to make sure we both are hearing for our next steps. This child deserved to go with the family God had for her and we needed to make sure we were thinking through this.
We prayed, read and re read her file. We consulted Doctors with her medical conditions, family, close friends, and our neighbors who had great insight.
After a few weeks of thoughtful prayer we felt peace that she was our child, and let our agency know.
We began preparing our hearts. We walked in faith, trusting God with our family and with our child.
The process from us saying yes to picking our little one up was 1 year
(About 3 years total).
During that year was an opportunity for our thoughts to second guess, question, fear. Lucas has a gift for steadfastness and trust but I wrestled with doubt and anxious thoughts.
I remember one night I was having trouble sleeping. I was afraid things wouldn’t work out and we wouldn’t be able to bring our little one home.
I felt God saying:…. imagine your life with her. Let your brain imagine what it will be like with her in your house. I have given you a promise … let yourself see what that promise is.
So I did. I saw her at our kitchen table. Playing with Lucas. Running through the house. Laughing.
I was afraid to let myself dream for fear it might not happen. For fear I might not actually be able to trust God with this.
God has shown his faithfulness in our life, time after time, what would make this time different?
We had prayed, felt God’s direction, heard his promise, and now I needed to trust he would provide.
Almost a year to the date we said yes, we were on our way to Taiwan. We met our beautiful Stevie. Yes the fears and the anxious thoughts came, but the peace and faithfulness that God showed us covered us. He completed our family. He provided his promise. He brought Stevie home. He covered us in the process of adjusting at home. Home adjustment was difficult for all 3 of us but God was so faithful to provide us with friends, family, and his grace to cover us in healing and molding our new family.
“Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you”
Looking back now Stevie is 100% our child. God cared for her in her life circumstances and God brought us a blessing. We prayed, believed, and received.
We want to thank Lori Johnson for sharing this post.